“David inquired of the LORD, saying, “Shall I pursue this band? Shall I overtake them?”
And He said to him, “Pursue, for you will surely overtake them, and you will surely rescue all.”
I Samuel 30:8
For the past three weeks I’ve been so discombobulated and off kilter that I couldn’t even begin to verbalize what I felt like (that’s crazy, right). It started with my youngest child breaking out into a fever for two days that then turned into vomitting. After taking three days off from work and receiving a jarring email from my principal by Sunday night I found myself praying for her recovery, just so that I could just return to work drama free. By Monday she was fine, but I was feeling like chemical waste.
I dragged myself to work for four days and tried to just praise and thank God I was alive, but in the back of my mind I was wondering what was happening to me. My teeth were chattering and hallucinating–I could see my funeral procession and the mourners every time I closed my eyes. By the time my healing manifested I found myself behind on my writing and promoting and behind on my school work. So behind that I began to wonder if I was where God wanted me to be.
When this week began, I didn’t know what to do with myself. Finish my edits, work on the book I’d started writing, or keep working on my special project (BIG ANNOUNCEMENT COMING SOON). I didn’t want to do any of it. The devil had not only temporarily jacked up my health he’d also found away to pick my pocket and walk off with a good chunk of my faith and focus.
I prayed on Tuesday night and I told the Lord, “I need a clear word from you about what I’m doing or I won’t do anything. I’ve done things my own way for long enough I need to know that I’m doing the right thing.” Within twenty-four hours of that prayer, the Lord blessed me with a dream that I don’t know the meaning of exactly, but I can see the significance of (does that make sense?) and then Sapphire J Blue interviewed me after reading Seasoned with Grace and said, “I thank you…I have been filled with the Spirit for the last couple of days and I needed it and loved it…Please continue to write I would love to have you back.”
If that wasn’t confirmation then I don’t know what else to call it.
What does that have to do with you? Well, I’m inviting you to join me in recovery mode. Did you lose anything recently–faith, courage, patience, passion? Whatever it is go and get it back. Just as David asked God what he should do when he found the enemy had taken everything that was his bow down, seek His face and watch the Lord give you the victory.
If you’d like me to join you in prayer or share a praise report about something you recovered drop a line in the comments.